when i need a listener

Warning! Heavy texts

My emotions goes like a roller coaster today, or say, economic cycle - at the peak in a moment, and then down the trough next. WTF seriously

I think I should totally skip today's part. However, I do wish to make this known to someone, good friend to be exact. I hope the things that have made known to me today won't affect our friendship. I know you hope it too. Honestly speaking, it's all too sudden that I didn't know how to react AT ALL. Somehow, I just wished that you didn't say anything to me and we remain as what we were before. I'm sorry that I've to be that blunt, you know me well. I prefer to speak out whatever is in my thoughts. I don't wish that this could somewhat affect our friendship we have now, I know it will, it really will. B'cos it is all so hard to put on a pretense and take as if nothing has happen. However, I believe as time pass, everything would be back to normal right? We will still be as good as before, budd ;)

I've this strange habits, hard to die(again) to pour out my secrets to acquaintances. Like totally, just acquaintances. Acquaintances in which you don't really get to meet that often, you may argue, secrets are for your family, closest friends and not some people you know them for not long.

I disagree on this point. Somehow, I feel safe telling them how I've really felt or what happened. Maybe because 1)They don't know the people I'm referring to. 2)Sometimes, it's so embarrassing to even tell your closest friends. 3)It's better to have your secrets with someone totally out of your usual friends' circle. 4)They don't give judgmental opinions.

Not that I don't tell anything to my girlfriends, I do tell them, like almost everything. But somehow, I just feel extra secured to hear opinions from someone I don't really know too. Like y'know, both sides of the coin.

So I've this good 'acquaintance' for around 4 years, mcnuggets. Well, we remain contact online for 4years. Just some rare meetups once a year or so I think? He would always text me when he is bored, (like I'm his sparetyre! F! hah hah) but on another hand, he would always offered to help when I faced troubles. He is always so full of phylosophies that made my days better. :) Thanks Nugget!

&I've got this another 'acquaintance' too(Hah hah, two-timing) My pet 'Candy', obviously not the candy. But a guy that I get to know in an unusual way. Nevertheless, sometimes I do go to him when I face with some problems. He might think that I'm very annoying, because I'm always disturbing his studying time. However, he will always try his very best to 'entertain' me before he goes off to mug. Good dog! Hope you don't find you owner very annoying. I'll treat you well

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